Thursday, April 21, 2011

Sending Birthday Wishes To Heaven

April 22nd would have been my grandma Vonnie's birthday. She passed away on July 25, 2008. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her and miss her. It's been nearly 3 years but I still love her so much. I know I've talked about her before (as well as my grandpa.) This morning I stumbled across a blog from two years ago today.


Tomorrow would have been my grandma's birthday. Normally she most likely would have gotten around, maybe done a little shopping, and then spent the rest of the day at the casino. Oh, and to top the day off she'd come home and eat a big bowl of ice cream! This year she is spending her birthday in heaven. This Saturday it will be 9 months since she passed. I miss her SO much!!

As soon as I found out I was pregnant I have wanted this baby to be born on April 22nd. I was bound and determined to do whatever I could to make this happen. And then all of a sudden something changed. I don't know what it was. All of a sudden it was just another day. Having this baby born on what would have been my grandma's birthday would not bring her back. I came to terms with the fact that my baby would have its own birthdate. One that was chosen by my OB.

I miss my grandma so much. I really do. You have no idea. I think about her every day. I dream about her all the time. I really feel as though I am having this baby because of her. I know that sounds weird, but it's true.

The husband and I started to try for another baby in May 2007. Nothing was happening and then in May of 2008 I was told I would most likely never get pregnant again. I decided to give up and went on the pill. I wasn't happy about it, but I was tired of feeling like a failure. I was on the pill and then grandma passed away in July. Two weeks later I had a doctors appointment. Again I was told I would never conceive again. Two weeks later I found out I was pregnant. A month to the day after grandma died. That's some crazy shit right there! I have always said that my grandma gave great gifts, but I feel as though this baby is her greatest gift she could have given me. I honestly feel as though she is my guardian angel as well.

While I have come to terms with the fact that my baby won't be born on the same date as my grandma, I still have hope. It's not a lot, but its there. :)

Grandma: I love you and miss you so much. I hope you have a great birthday. While I most likely won't be walking around a casino tomorrow, I will enjoy and extra scoop of ice cream for you though! Happy Birthday!


Like I said earlier, I wrote this two years ago today. I was 9 months pregnant. I was a ball of emotions. On the morning of Wednesday, April 22, 2009 I woke up and was having contractions every 10 minutes. They were not increasing in pain or frequency so I didn't think it was 'it'. My baby, a boy, a perfect baby boy, was born that evening. I am still amazed that he chose my grandma's birthday for his own. Though I wish my grandma was still here to celebrate her birthday with my son, I am excited to tell him all about her as he gets older

Sunday, April 17, 2011

So Much For That "Calm"

A few blog posts ago I wrote about how we were in the 'calm between the storms'. We were really busy and things were finally calming down. Well things are now picking back up. Super fast. My son's birthday is this week. I'm having a hard time thinking of him as a two year old. My daughter's birthday is next month. I still can't believe she's turning five, but it hasn't hit me quite yet. Every week in the month of May I will be attending a two hour meeting/class on gentle discipline. In the next two months we have a lot on our plate. Easter, kindergarten roundup, Mother's Day, bridal showers, birthday parties, cookouts, meetings, classes, open houses, a wedding and I'm sure I'm forgetting a lot more. I don't have any Pure Romance parties on my schedule and normally I'd be starting to stress a bit, but with everything else going on, it's nice to not have to worry about adding even more things to the calendar. We recently bought materials to build a deck on our house. It should look really nice when it's all done. We just have to get started on it. There was a hold up with the couple of permits and inspections we needed before we could really do much, but after tomorrow we should be given the green light to go ahead and start building. We have a couple of inside projects too. We have been painting the living room and OMG, it's been a project. The painting should be done now though so now we just have to worry about putting everything back together. I want my kids to make 'art' to hang on the walls. I picture the final project in my head and it looks really good. Hopefully when all is said and done it will be as great as the vision in my head. I guess we will just have to wait and see. The other 'big' project we are doing inside is redoing Zoey and Ford's bedroom. He's in his toddler bed but he's getting so big for it. We have a twin size for him now and we need to clean their room and get it set up. We haven't bought the bedding yet because it was sold out, but I did get a raincheck so I can get the awesome sale price. I felt bad that he was getting new bedding, so I decided to get a new bedding set for Zoey. Their room is going to look SO cute! Here's the sets that we are going with. Zoey loves the owls and I thought the backyard friends theme goes so well with them.

I hope you don't think I am complaining about all this. I'm really not. I LIKE keeping busy. I'm just worried that I keep taking on too many things and I'm going to forget something major. I'm horrible at writing things down on my calendar or schedule, and let's face it, my memory is not as great as it used to be. Haha! My friend and her boyfriend visited us at our house today and it was really nice. We don't 'hang out' as much anymore but this visit today made me realize that I want to make more of an effort to visit them. Hoping we can get together for some double dates within the next couple of months.

If you don't see me around for a while, you'll know why. :)

'This Ain't Freaking Mario Kart!'

Being from a small town, you don't tend to see bad cases of road rage. (Please don't get me wrong, you still see it, but it's not nearly as bad as you see in large cities.) Yesterday I saw the worst, yet funniest, case of road rage that I've ever seen in my entire life. We were in a parking lot, trying to turn right onto the road. Traffic was stopped at the red light. It soon turned green. Apparently traffic wasn't moving as fast as someone liked because all of a sudden in the lane closest to us, we see one car THROW A BANANA at the car in front of it! I don't actually know if the banana hit the car, but it was hilarious!

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

April Showers Bring May Flowers

As a child, you are taught that April showers bring May flowers. I bet they didn't mean snow showers though.

This was our Sunday afternoon. We went from no snow, to about 4 inches in probably just as many hours. It soon turned to rain and when we woke the next morning, only an inch of snow remained. It's getting fairly 'warm' during the days (think mid-40's) so by now the snow is gone. It makes me nervous though because it should be warming up for good by now. I know, I know, I'm in Michigan so I should be used to the crazy weather changes, but I am so sick of the snow and cold temps. I'm not usually one to complain about the weather (except in the summer. Fat people and triple degree temperatures DO NOT mix well!) but this is getting ridiculous. I long for the day when we can leave the house without bundling the kids up in their big coats, hats, etc. I want to wear short sleeve shirts and cute sandals! (Note to self, write 'pedicure' on the list of things to do.) I see the robins out playing and it gives me hope. While I was outside with the kids today I did see my tulips poking out of the ground. Perhaps those 'May flowers' are on their way after all.

Monday, April 4, 2011

The Calm Between The Storms

The last few months have been so busy for us. It seems as though we were on the go every day. I realize this is normal for some people, but it's not for us. March was crazy busy and although it was great, I'm glad to see it come to an end. We don't have much on the calendar for the next few weeks. I'm sure it's going to pick up real quick though as the boy's birthday is later this month, the girl has a birthday in May and my little brother is getting married in June. I feel bad for my son. Like I said, his birthday is in less than 3 weeks and we have NOTHING planned for a party. To be completely honest, I don't even want to have a party, but I feel like I need to have one for him. I'm contemplating having one party for both kids, but then it doesn't seem fair to either one. But then again, they are already going to get cake, ice cream and gifts even if we don't have a party, and that's more than a lot of kids get. Right? I'm really looking forward to a couple of weeks of not doing a whole lot of anything. I have a list of things I want/need to do in that time. I should probably get going so I can start crossing them off my list. I'm hoping that I can pump out some blog posts during this down time too, so make sure you check back.