Thursday, March 31, 2011

30 Day Project: Day 30

Day 30: A picture of someone you miss.

I miss my grandparents. I was really close with both of them and they were almost like an extra set of parents. I spent a lot of time with them as a child, and even as an adult I visited as often as I could. They both taught me a lot about love and life. I wish I could have just one more day with them. I want to know if I am making them proud. I want them to meet both of my children (Zoey had two years with grandma). But most importantly, I just want to tell them one more time that I love them both. Their deaths seemed sudden (to me) and I never told them one last goodbye. At least not while they were still alive. Even though they've both been gone for years, I still feel them with me. I see so much of them in my children. Their spirits live on through them, as well as our memories and our love.

30 Day Project: Day 29

Day 29: A picture that can always make you smile.

30 Day Project: Day 28

Day 28: A picture of something you're afraid of.

Mice. I hate mice. Not the cute cartoon mice, but the creepy
little rodents that sneak around your house.
(Actually, I wanted to put clowns, but I was too chicken shit to even
search for a picture because they freak me out so much.)

30 Day Project: Day 27

Day 27: A picture of yourself and a family member.

Myself and my kids last spring. We went to Chicago. This was taken by the
entrance to the Lincoln Park Zoo. Can't wait to go back!

30 Day Project: Day 26

Day 26: A picture of something that means a lot to you.

My sense of humor. I don't think I'd be able to function without it.

30 Day Project: Day 25

Day 25: A picture of your favorite day.

I don't know if this is a favorite day, but it was a perfect day.
My husband's grandparents live right on Lake Huron and it makes for some pretty
incredible sunsets. I love spending time there. It really is one of
my most favorite places ever.

30 Day Project: Day 24

Day 24: A picture of something you wish you could change.

I long for the day that ALL people are free to marry whoever they love.

30 Day Project: Day 23

Day 23: A picture of your favorite book.

Pure Romance: Between The Sheets
by Patty Brisben

To Kill A Mockingbird
by Harper Lee

Green Eggs and Ham
by Dr. Seuss

30 Day Project: Day 22

Day 22: A picture of something you wish you were better at.

I procrastinate. A lot. I need to work on getting better about doing things right away.

30 Day Project: Day 21

Day 21: A picture of something you wish you could forget.

30 Day Project: Day 20

Day 20: A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.

England, Scotland and Ireland

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

30 Day Project: Day 19

Day 19: A picture and a letter.

Dear Zoey and Ford,
I love you both so incredibly much. I may not be the most perfect mom, but I try to do as best as I know how. You both have taught me so much about life and myself. You make me laugh. You make me cry. You fight. A lot. You pull each others hair. You pinch each other. I can't keep the house clean because as soon as I clean something, you are right there behind me messing it up. You don't take naps and you are just exhausting. You have taught me patience. But then there are those few moments where you play together and are best friends. It's so sweet that it brings a tear to my eye. You make me laugh every day. I cherish our snuggle time. I love you both so much. I'm so honored that you call me Mommy.

30 Day Project: Day 18

Day 18: A picture of your biggest insecurity.

'Success is a state of mind. If you want success, start thinking of yourself as a success.'
~ Dr. Joyce Brothers

I'm so scared to fail that I never really try.

30 Day Project: Day 17

Day 17: A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.

Pure Romance!
Joining my PR team has been such an awesome journey for me.
I love that I can stay at home with my kids but still make some
pretty darn good money. Pure Romance has done so
much for me both personally and professionally!

30 Day Project: Day 16

Day 16: A picture of someone who inspires you.

My friend Rena. She has PCOS as well and her journey is so inspiring!

30 Day Project: Day 15

Day 15: A picture of something you want to do before you die.


30 Day Project: Day 14

Day 14: A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.

Okay, so I have two someones. My kids mean the world to me. I'd be lost without them.

30 Day Project 13

Day 13: A picture of your favorite band or artist.

The Beatles


This is video from the concert last weekend.

30 Day Project: Day 12

Day 11: A picture of your favorite memory.

This is a picture of my daughter and myself
about 3 hours before my son was born. I loved
being pregnant with both of my children. I had really
great pregnancies. I'd love to have another, but I don't know
about having more kids. I would actually really love to be a surrogate.

30 Day Project Day 11

Day 11: A picture of something you hate.

More specifically, infant circumcision. What a grown
man chooses to do with his genitals doesn't bother me.

(Excuse me while I go throw up.)

30 Day Project: Day 10

Day 10: A picture of your most treasured item.

I actually do not have a picture of these items. I treasure them so much that they are locked away safe from any harm. One is my grandma's bracelet that she let me use as my 'something borrowed' on my wedding day. She told me that day that since I love it so much I can have it when she dies. I never thought she'd pass away so soon. The second item is a pink sapphire that my grandpa cut and polished himself. For about two years we were supposed to go have the stone set in a ring, but our schedules never lined up. It eventually became impossible because of his health. He still always told me that he wanted me to have the stone.

30 Day Project: Day 9

Day 9: A picture of you and the person who has gotten you through the most.

Okay, so I know I am not in this picture, but these are the three people
that get me through. No matter how bad of a day I'm having, I can always
count on them to cheer me up. Even when one or more of them are the
cause of the bad day. I know I said it before, but my
husband and children are my life.

30 Day Project: Day 8

Day 8: A picture of your knight.

My husband and son. One's a knight and one's a knight in training.

30 Day Project: Day 7

Day 7: A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with.

This would be the husband. This photo is from the Korn/Disturbed concert last weekend.
What could be more messed up (or more fun!) than sex, drugs and rock and roll?

30 Day Project: Day 6

Day 6: A picture that makes you laugh.

Keep in mind that I have a daughter and a son.

30 Day Project: Day 5

Day 5: A picture of something you love.

My kids. I love them more than life itself.

30 Day Project: Day 4

Day 4: A picture of something you'd like to do again.

I'd love to have another child. I make beautiful children.

I'd love to go on vacation here again. One day I will take my family.
(Disney's private island in the Bahamas)

I want another tattoo, but I don't know what I want.
I'm not going to rush out and get one just for
the sake of getting one.

I know this is impossible, but I'd love to spend just one more day with my
grandparents. I want them to meet my kids.
I want to tell them just once more that I love them.

30 Day Project: Day 3

Day 3: A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

The Office!

Glee would be a very close second.

30 Day Project: Day 2

Day 2: A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.

This is a picture of my husband and myself on our wedding day nearly 7 years ago. He knows every inch of me, inside and out and yet he loves me just as much today as he did when we started dating nearly 11 years ago. The feeling is completely mutual. Well, most days.

Monday, March 28, 2011

30 Day Project

Lately on Facebook I've seen friends doing this '30 Day Project'. It's kind of a 'getting to know you better' project. It looks fun and interesting, but I've just never started it. Now I've decided to do it and I am going to skip Facebook and do it here on my blog instead! But then here's the problem. I procrastinate. All. The. Time. I'm hoping I can stick to this. I mean, it's only 30 days. A normal person should be able to stick to that right?! If you know me at all, you know that I'm anything but normal.

Day 1 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts:

1. My husband and children are my life.
2. This picture was taken on March 26, 2011 on my way to the Korn/Disturbed concert.
3. I have strong opinions on many different topics and I quite often hold back on what I really want to say.
4. I have a sick and twisted sense of humor. I'm sarcastic as fuck.
5. I cuss. A lot.
6. I love my job more than the normal person should.
7. I have tattoos. Three. I want more.
8. I am addicted to cupcakes from The Gourmet Cupcake Shoppe.
9. I'm an atheist.
10. I have a strange memory. I can remember things from when I was two, but I can't seem to remember anything from two weeks ago.
11. I want to become a certified car seat tech, a doula and a lactation consultant.
12. I say 'That's what she said!' way too often.
13. I was really close with my grandparents and even though they have been gone now for many years, I still miss them like it was only yesterday.
14. I love watching musicals. And listening to music.
15. Thinking of 15 facts about yourself is harder than you'd think.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011


I know I've said this before, but I really miss blogging. It seems like there's always something on my mind and I want to write my thoughts down. However, with the kids and everything I've committed myself too, it seems like when I do actually have time to sit down and write (er, type), I just don't feel like doing it.

We've had a couple of rough weeks. In mid-January, my daughter's preschool teacher was in a horrible accident. Although things were bad, everyone was positive and it looked hopeful. So it came as a huge shock on February 4th when I got the call saying that she had passed away. Not only had my daughter lost her teacher, I felt like I lost a friend. Mrs. Donna and I talked every day at school. A benefit dinner and silent auction is being planned and I'm doing all I can to help out. I'm hoping a lot of money is raised for her family. She leaves behind a husband, son and daughter. Donna wasn't even 10 years older than me. It's so scary and breaks my heart. Donna's death has changed the way I look at life. I can't really explain this. If you're a friend on Facebook, you know what we've been going through and how difficult it has been for Zoey. I don't want to get into specifics here because it makes me so sad. Here is a picture of Zoey and a picture she drew for Mrs. Donna's family. It's a picture of Zoey and Donna holding hands. Notice the flowers and rainbow. She drew the heart because 'Mrs. Donna will always live in our hearts'. I love that girl. I really do.

There's been a ton of things that I've wanted to write about but now that I'm actually doing it, they seem to have slipped my mind. Maybe I should write a list of things I want to write about. Sigh...

I hope my readers (all three of you!) are doing well. I'll try not to be a stranger. I leave you tonight with a picture of my adorable kids. :)